Well you aren't the first, and this ain't about honesty. You made damn sure you didn't lie about this, didn't you? You're drawn to people who struggle with the notion of not killing people. But lately you've been pushing a gun in their hands and egging 'em on, and you have never been dishonest about it.

If Harvey came back here all relapsed, how long would it be before you were letting him beat you to death for catharsis? Or hell, just for fun.