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anewlanguage[Private to Barbara Gordon]
We oughta do a check in, you and me.
[he's seething but managing to hide it. Kind of.]
[Private to Iris]
[This is the first time she's ever death tolled that he hasn't waited at her side for her to wake up. But he knows himself, and he knows that right now the safest thing for everyone is if he is nowhere near her.
So instead there's a message waiting for her.]
You've got a lot of fuckin' nerve doing what you did, darlin'.
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[And between all that he'll be wandering, mostly hanging out at the pool, which so far has only pretty happy memories. Nothing that he has the urge to scream at or shoot; progress!
Feel free to come poke the bear.]
We oughta do a check in, you and me.
[he's seething but managing to hide it. Kind of.]
[Private to Iris]
[This is the first time she's ever death tolled that he hasn't waited at her side for her to wake up. But he knows himself, and he knows that right now the safest thing for everyone is if he is nowhere near her.
So instead there's a message waiting for her.]
You've got a lot of fuckin' nerve doing what you did, darlin'.
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[And between all that he'll be wandering, mostly hanging out at the pool, which so far has only pretty happy memories. Nothing that he has the urge to scream at or shoot; progress!
Feel free to come poke the bear.]
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Date: 2015-01-20 03:54 am (UTC)Besides, he's been in worse Hells than this one. There's a pool, which is easily the most obvious and unlikely reminder of this. Dean doesn't swim, but sometimes after his shift in the kitchens but before he's ready to sleep he wanders up there to smell the chlorine, watch the artificially clear water, and remember where he isn't.
Which is what he's doing when he glances up and sees Cain. He's fully dressed in jeans, boots, and layered shirts with no obvious intention of getting in the water or moving from the pool chair he's stretched out in; he has an unlit cigarette in his hand, a smudge of spaghetti sauce on his cheek, and a detached expression when he glances over.]
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:28 pm (UTC)[Nodding at the cigarette. What Dean is doing here, Cain can only guess. Could be he's here working up the nerve to jump in and sink to the bottom; could be he's here waiting for someone.]
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Date: 2015-01-24 02:52 pm (UTC)Actually...
Nah. Dean switches the cigarette in question between fingers without looking, head tilted so he can see Cain from the corner of his eye but not looking at him either; he's looking at the water, or maybe through it.]
Depends on what you mean by that. Had this particular one about two days.
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Date: 2015-01-30 05:22 am (UTC)[Since not many people on board smoke, and Cain doubts the Admiral hands them out for free.]
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Date: 2015-01-30 05:36 am (UTC)This is just one such example of that. Being in this room at all is another. ]
Maybe it's the habit that's too boring for me to bother committing to.
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Date: 2015-02-07 04:21 am (UTC)Hell, even an exciting habit might not be enough for you to put a ring on.
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Date: 2015-02-07 04:27 am (UTC)[He gives him a dry look] You don't need a translation. Besides, even if I gave you one, you'd get your hackles all up. If you're gonna smoke you may as well get fifteen minutes to pretend you're relaxing.
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Date: 2015-02-07 04:38 am (UTC)Which is, naturally, why you're talking to me at all.
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Date: 2015-02-07 06:48 am (UTC)Re: [ Spam ]
Date: 2015-02-07 06:54 am (UTC)[He laughs] What, do I look like your yoga instructor? Do I look like a guy who thinks taking the bad is a good idea?
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Date: 2015-02-07 06:59 am (UTC)I don't give a fuck about your inner peace, Dean. I just hate the smell of lung cancer brewing.
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Date: 2015-02-07 07:05 am (UTC)Good thing it ain't lit then, isn't it?
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Date: 2015-02-08 10:59 pm (UTC)[He smiles in a way that's agreeing with him at first, but flickers a bit to something like a warning. It wouldn't stay lit, if Cain was in the room with it.]
I take it you're feeling pensive, then.
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Date: 2015-02-09 01:47 am (UTC)Is that a crime around here? Because honestly I can't figure out what is.
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Date: 2015-02-09 01:54 am (UTC)Seriously? You can't? Uh, why do you think people get so pissy with you every time you kill someone?
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Date: 2015-02-09 06:22 am (UTC)[Dean transfers the cigarette up to his mouth, freeing up his hands to stretch like he doesn't care about any of this at all. In point of fact, it doesn't.]
It's not my job anymore. It's just the way things are. And this place sure as shit isn't fooling me, even if Hell doesn't typically come with a pool with chlorine in it.
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Date: 2015-02-11 05:51 am (UTC)You think you'll ever get out of Hell?
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Date: 2015-02-11 05:54 am (UTC)Hell isn't the kind of place you ever get out of once you've been to it.
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Date: 2015-02-11 06:09 am (UTC)But there's always a tier-system. There's gotta be, what, 'shittiest day I can't describe' on up to 'only thought about eating a bullet once'.
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Date: 2015-02-11 07:03 am (UTC)Not really. And even if there were, it's not like it's the kind of thing I could describe to you. Or that I would want to.
There's the first day, and then the day after that, and then the rest of it. That's about it.
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