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anewlanguage[Private to Barbara Gordon]
We oughta do a check in, you and me.
[he's seething but managing to hide it. Kind of.]
[Private to Iris]
[This is the first time she's ever death tolled that he hasn't waited at her side for her to wake up. But he knows himself, and he knows that right now the safest thing for everyone is if he is nowhere near her.
So instead there's a message waiting for her.]
You've got a lot of fuckin' nerve doing what you did, darlin'.
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[And between all that he'll be wandering, mostly hanging out at the pool, which so far has only pretty happy memories. Nothing that he has the urge to scream at or shoot; progress!
Feel free to come poke the bear.]
We oughta do a check in, you and me.
[he's seething but managing to hide it. Kind of.]
[Private to Iris]
[This is the first time she's ever death tolled that he hasn't waited at her side for her to wake up. But he knows himself, and he knows that right now the safest thing for everyone is if he is nowhere near her.
So instead there's a message waiting for her.]
You've got a lot of fuckin' nerve doing what you did, darlin'.
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[And between all that he'll be wandering, mostly hanging out at the pool, which so far has only pretty happy memories. Nothing that he has the urge to scream at or shoot; progress!
Feel free to come poke the bear.]
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Date: 2015-01-20 03:20 am (UTC)because you have no idea what it's like, of course.yes, I have and that wasn't news to you.
it was needed. i'm sorry
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:20 pm (UTC)[text/voice/private]
Date: 2015-01-20 05:30 pm (UTC)but i might have been wrong about you needing it then, too. i had so much anger and misery and powerless resentment piled up in me.
that part wasn't so different, roderick's different though. this wasn't about pointless vengeance and stupidity. he's wired himself so that he has killing all tangled up with love and passion.
he's killed a lot of people. but he never had anyone offer before. i wanted to see what that would do.
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:20 am (UTC)And what he needs is not for you to fucking enable him! And what I need is for you to not justify it like you were doing this all out of the goodness of your hearts.
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:26 am (UTC)why does it sometimes feel so good to let yourself burn?
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:41 am (UTC)[He's planning to do so, regardless, until he cools off. Which might be a long time coming.]
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Date: 2015-01-20 03:36 am (UTC)She knocks on the door.]
Hey! Can I come in?
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:23 pm (UTC)You'll be Olympic-ready, how often I see you here.
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:32 pm (UTC)This pool, my room, and the spa are the nicest places I ever been. I can't believe it's real.
[She enters bouncily and starts stripping down to her suit. Totally planning to canonball into the deep end here.]
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:22 am (UTC)Yeah, every day I feel a little better about-
[He sees what she's about to do and scrambles to at least get his electronics out of the splash zone.]
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:26 am (UTC)Then she surfaces.]
About being here, you mean. Yeah, me too.
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:40 am (UTC)[Fast as he is, the room isn't quite large enough that he got out of the splash completely. He's pretty soaked, but laughing.]
You thinking about being a warden when your time's up? You'd be a really good balance to all the hardasses we've got right now.
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Date: 2015-01-22 12:42 am (UTC)You think I'd be good at it?
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Date: 2015-01-20 03:54 am (UTC)Besides, he's been in worse Hells than this one. There's a pool, which is easily the most obvious and unlikely reminder of this. Dean doesn't swim, but sometimes after his shift in the kitchens but before he's ready to sleep he wanders up there to smell the chlorine, watch the artificially clear water, and remember where he isn't.
Which is what he's doing when he glances up and sees Cain. He's fully dressed in jeans, boots, and layered shirts with no obvious intention of getting in the water or moving from the pool chair he's stretched out in; he has an unlit cigarette in his hand, a smudge of spaghetti sauce on his cheek, and a detached expression when he glances over.]
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:28 pm (UTC)[Nodding at the cigarette. What Dean is doing here, Cain can only guess. Could be he's here working up the nerve to jump in and sink to the bottom; could be he's here waiting for someone.]
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Date: 2015-01-24 02:52 pm (UTC)Actually...
Nah. Dean switches the cigarette in question between fingers without looking, head tilted so he can see Cain from the corner of his eye but not looking at him either; he's looking at the water, or maybe through it.]
Depends on what you mean by that. Had this particular one about two days.
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Date: 2015-01-30 05:22 am (UTC)[Since not many people on board smoke, and Cain doubts the Admiral hands them out for free.]
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Date: 2015-01-30 05:36 am (UTC)This is just one such example of that. Being in this room at all is another. ]
Maybe it's the habit that's too boring for me to bother committing to.
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Date: 2015-02-07 04:21 am (UTC)Hell, even an exciting habit might not be enough for you to put a ring on.
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Date: 2015-01-20 04:14 pm (UTC)Agreed.
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Date: 2015-01-20 05:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-21 12:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-22 12:23 am (UTC)[He sighs heavily and shakes his head]
This time seems real different to me.